Tuesday, January 2, 2018

my word for 2018

free: not determined by anything beyond its own nature or being.

This year is the first year I've had a "word" for the year. I really struggle with commitment, but probably not in the way you're thinking. When I say I struggle with commitment, I mean that once I commit to something, I have to do it. And if I don't, I feel guilty for approximately 287 years.

So, committing to one "word" for the year is almost terrifying to me because if by January 1, 2019, I haven't held true to it, I'm going to feel like I failed. But this year, I feel as if it's almost necessary.

In the last few years, 2017 especially, I played tug of war with my own self on a daily basis. I went further than being my own worst critic; I tore myself down in one area or another that I felt like I was failing to the point of breaking.

I scolded myself for not being a "good enough" Christian.
I yelled at myself for slacking in marriage or motherhood.
I beat myself down for the way my body looks.
I hid because I wasn't as thin/pretty/fit/beautiful as her, or her, or her.
I tried building a wall between me and God (ha) because surely, He doesn't want someone like me.

Near the end of 2017, I was beaten, bruised, and scarred because of one simple thing: me.

About a month ago, I saw a post on Instagram by Emma from In His Name, Co. She was offering to letter a photo with your "word" for 2018 for free, only asking in return to tag her on social media when you posted it.
I felt pulled to send her one, but it was overwhelming to think of just one word to live by in 2018. I was browsing through photos of me, sliding through each one, deciding that no photo was good enough for one reason or another.
I finally decided that I wasn't going to send a photo and my 2018 could do without a "word".

I had no sooner clicked off my phone that a gentle whisper flooded my heart. It only said one word, but one word was enough.

free.

In 2018, I will be free.

I will be free from my toxic thoughts.
I will be free from the judgment of others, including myself.
I will be free from my unreasonable expectations.
I will be free from worry, self-doubt, and anxiety.
I will be free from the enemy's lies.

I will be free in Christ alone.


"So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." - John 8:36.

What is your word for 2018, if you picked one? I'd love to hear it in the comments!

See Emma's Instagram HERE. I personally have one of her Bible's and trust me when I tell you you'll never own a more beautiful Bible!



4 comments:

  1. I really love this post. So honest, I love how you chose the word free as it is so important to not be in bondage in the thoughts of the enemy! I love your spirit.

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  2. LOVE this so much! It's those gentle whispers that keep me moving forward daily! I love how God speaks to me with His still, small voice. Free is a great word for 2018! Blessings to you!

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  3. This is so encouraging! Thank you for sharing!

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